Sex and Control—Understand Your Dark Energy
Loss of Control
She was, obviously, upset by this and was fearful of doing anything about it. She was afraid of where things would go if she wasn’t in control, she was afraid of losing that grip on herself. She said this left her confused.
Thinking about this I became angry with the man involved, with his inadequacy, his inability to be a man. It made me interested in the subject of how to control sexuality for men. How do you deal with sex men?
Let’s wind back, look at this situation and think about it calmly. Let’s look at sex control.
Exploring Dark Energy
Last year I attended a workshop in Pune, India, with my wife, Urmila. In the final session we worked together to explore our dark energy. The idea was to find and unleash it’s power and see where it went. This was scary stuff for us, but it was something we wanted to explore and come to terms with. We knew that to become completely free in our relationship we had to be sure of what might happen if we lost control. Losing control is a fear we all have. Will we become abusive? Will we collapse? Will we still be ourselves?
It was playful at first but as we went deeper we pushed each other and let go of our inhibitions. The leader came over to us to check we were OK, she was afraid we were hurting each other. No we weren’t, we were having the most amazing time of our lives, we were flowing.
We learned about masculine presence/grounding and feminine trust/surrender. The balance took us deep into our relationship and gave us both strength. Urmila, being physically weaker and the woman, grew in her pushing and testing of me. I took everything she threw at me and gave her more back. She went further, let go and gave me all she had. I took this and gave it back to her. I gave her the freedom to go wherever she wanted but never relinquished control. I could take it, and give it back. I remained grounded and present, nothing threw me off.
Urmila’s trust grew and she let go completely, relinquishing control. She was no longer afraid of where she might go, she could truly trust me to take it and not to lose control myself. I could give it back, tempered with the knowledge of my own strength and the potential hurt I could inflict. I could hurt her, but didn’t.
The power of the dark energy has remained in our relationship and made it strong.
Retreat Into Weakness
When we come to sex between men and women the same situation applies. A man can create a space of allowing the woman to go where she wants, whether it is controlling or submissive, but he retains the ability to take it and give it back. In this space the woman can trust and surrender and totally let go. They both enter a place of trust and presence where they can fully explore themselves and their relationship. The man can take whatever happens and not feel inadequate. This strength, presence and trust creates an electric situation.
Returning to the man we looked in the beginning, we see that he was unable to go there. He was unable to trust his own presence, strength and power, unable to take what was coming to him. The woman was testing him, pushing him to find out where he was, how he would react. She was taking control because he didn’t. She wanted him to take it back, not through her weakness, not through her becoming submissive, but through his own power and presence.
He retreated into his own weakness, he relinquished his masculinity, he got out of the relationship. He blamed her for the situation, he made her responsible for the breakdown. She was taking control, women shouldn’t do that, women should know their place! What rubbish! A man should know his place, a man should be capable of knowing himself and his strength. A man should be grounded and confident. A man should understand his responsibility. A man should be present and trusted by the woman, trusted to go further, to not go too far and trusted to take whatever she throws at him.